How do you know you truly enjoy spending time alone? And not when you have distractions keeping you from knowing yourself. Because I would be watching TV alone, being on my phone or reading and say that I enjoy spending time with myself. When all along these was just distractions from me being with myself.

I believe, to be truly with yourself is being in solitude. Sitting in silence, and just observing your thoughts. Most of the times I will be changing these thoughts that does not serve me. If they do not make me feel at peace, I create a new meaning to the situation I am thinking about. My emotions are there to guide me to what thoughts I should be embarking on. A recent quote I came across “Let your hands be so busy catching blessings, that you don’t have the capacity to hold onto grudges”, sums it nicely. When we consume our minds with goodness, we leave very little room for any negativity to take over.

I’ve recently been diagnosed with breast cancer. It came to me as a shock and the first thought that came to my head was how disappointed I was in myself for not acting sooner. I felt that had I not insisted on having the lump removed, further tests would not have been done. I was ready to blame the medical staff for not doing their jobs properly. But just after a few solitude moments, I made the decision to change the story I’ve been telling myself:

• That I’m grateful I followed my initiation, because if I have not, another year would pass by not knowing that this could spread further than it may have already
• I am now more mentally prepared than 2 years ago, since I’ve started with my self-love journey
• I have the financial support to cover for my medical expenses
• I have loving family and friends
• Last but not least, my relationship with God has been the strongest it’s ever been

These are only a few things I’ve listed to be thankful for. The actual list is much longer. “The world may not always be easy to live in, but I am thankful for another chance to be here, to breathe, to choose my direction and to live and be loved. I am intent on highlighting the positive and offering the light I have to give to the world. I am making the most of this lifetime, because it is my life, after all. I am thankful for another day.”