I often speak of letting go and maybe because I’m not one to easily walk away from situations that no longer serves me. I consider myself a loyal person and sometimes to my own detriment. And knowing when to walk away does not always have to be from a bad situation. It could merely be from my “comfort zone”.

I take comfort in my security, knowing how things will pan out. I am a planner and not one to be spontaneous at times, unless there was some preparing from my part to be spontaneous in those moments. I like being on time, not normally early but barely late for anything. I keep to my word and avoid making promises I cannot keep. Being a cancer survivor has made me willing to take more risks, facing my fears, so to speak. I came to realize that life is for us to experience, learn and grow. Pain and suffering is inevitable in life, but why do we seem to avoid it at all cost? Pain and suffering are not entirely the same thing. Pain can be good “no pain, no gain!”. Pain reminds us that we are still alive. Suffering on the other hand is our mental and emotional state. How we perceive an experience to be. Am I victim or a victor in my own story I tell.

It’s been exactly a year ago since my diagnosis and I thank God for the experience. I have so much to be great full for. Our circumstances does not define our happiness. I’m making healthier choices and practicing to take better care of myself and the people in my life. Knowing when to walk away comes from within. We can ask people’s advise, but end of the day no one should be telling you how to live your life. We have an intuition to guide us. We just need to listen and obey, but we sometimes find it hard to do so. Either because of societies believes or too concerned of other people’s opinions. I know that I’ve grown since last year, just by what behavior I allow in my life. I’m living by certain standards I have created for my life that in the past I did not think much about. It is like a well maintained lawn that someone will think twice before walking over.