Self-reflection for 2020

Everyone will agree with me, what a year this has ended up to be!!! For sure 20plenty! Plenty of lessons learned; re-learned; re-assessed; re-inventing myself; re-evaluated my situation. This year has allowed me to take a much needed pause. A time to be still with less distractions and dive deep within my soul. I have been doing the inner work prior to 2020, lockdown has just speeded up my self-love journey non the less. I’m fortunate to have a acquired a solid foundation of relationships in my life, which this “pause” has allowed me to appreciate it even more.

I celebrated a lockdown birthday, happened to be the big 40, which I always said 2020 was going to my birthday year and not just month! This year has taught me to have a growth mindset. No longer am I content with living my life with no purpose or direction. I have grown closer to God during this year. I have gotten to accept and know myself better. Which I can honestly say that had a direct impact on the quality of relationships I have with others. I enjoy spending time on my own, with my own thoughts. Knowing that my thoughts are just thoughts and not who I am. I get to choose what thoughts I want to believe. Since I have adopted this habit, no longer do I feel like a slave to other people’s actions. I take responsibility for my own feelings, and that is what it means to practice being happy from within.

The uncertainty that was surfaced this year made me more adaptable to change. Asking and knowing what I want in life and trusting the process. Letting go has to be the biggest lesson I learned, a habit I doubt I will ever perfect. Letting go of old believes; expectations; relationships that served it’s purpose in my life and the biggest one of them all, letting go of control. Believing that everything happens for a reason. Carving out the time to reflect on what those reasons might be. As long as they are positive scenarios. It is the story you tell yourself that reflects back to you. So what is the story you are telling yourself?

Author: Verina

I’m no expert on any subject matter. I’m here to share my personal experiences and hopefully learn from others.